The King is Dead.... Long Live the ????????????

It's odd.

I mean... it's not un-natural.... but it is odd.

Michael Jackson is dead. Everyone dies... but when it happens, it's always so.... unreal.

He was always odd. He was always the butt of jokes and insinuations.
But he was MICHAEL JACKSON! Even through all his quirks, oddness and secrecy, he seemed almost immortal.

It's a strange confluence of emotions... you're sad... you're curioius... you're relieved....

He seemed so unhappy about 99% of the time, but I think he tried so hard.

And I believe this man... this superstar.... this ICON truly, totally loved his fans.
He wasn't mean. He never appeared to have the disdain for his fans that so many celebs seem to possess.
And, truth be told, all allegations aside.... he loved children.
Peter Pan never grew up...

I can't say he did or did not molest kids.... I like to think he didn't.
I just always imagined him as a child who never had a childhood. He was thrust into the limelight and into stardom.... he was never allowed to be a child.
And it's sad.

This was a man who had at least one major hit for almost every decade he was alive.
NO ONE has done that.
Maybe no one will ever again.
This is the era when no one buys CDs. No one watches music videos... no one seems to care anymore.

We'd rather read about his death before we read about his life.... what life he managed to have.
I think his father fucked him up royally. I don't blame Joseph for Michael's death.... but I certainly think he has to share the blame for Michael's LIFE.

We'll all miss those who passed.... Ed McMahon, Farrah Fawcet, even Billy Mays.

Such a crazy year 2009 has been.
RIP Michael Joseph Jackson
RIP Edward Leo Peter McMahon
RIP Ferrah Leni Fawcett
RIP William Darrell "Billy" Mays, Jr.

When a person uses a slur... ANY slur... it's wrong.

As any gay person can tell you, being called a f***ot is painful. I grew up being called it daily... I'm 34 years old and I still sting from it.

The fact that Hilton claims he "non-violently" handled the situation shows his divorce from reality. Violence is NOT just physical. Verbal abuse is just as violent as a punch to the face. Wounds heal, but scars are forever.

He NEEDS to apologize.

I'm sorry that he was in so much "shock" that he could only reach for his phone to twitter the entire world to call the police for him, but I don't feel sympathy for his getting hit.
Rest assured that if anyone called me that with as much venom as Hilton had in his voice... even another gay person... I'd want to punch him, as well. I may not do so, but the temptation would be there.

Had Will called Hilton that, Hilton would have been screaming for Will's public crucifixion.

He's a hypocrite. No way around it.

His "gossip site" is nothing but crude 5 year old drawing and hateful grade-school rhetoric. The fact that someone has NOT punched him in the face before the incident is amazing to me.

He does NOT represent the GLBT community.
We KNOW the power of words.
We know that hate only breeds more hate.
(Ann coulter take note.)

He is disgusting.... and that word being in his vocabulary speaks volumes about his intelligence level.

... Of Jesus, panties and titties

It's no secret that I have no trouble asserting my opinion on political topics... I think many different views on many different things:
I believe in the death penalty for serial killers and murderers.
I support a woman's right to choose... but I don't support abortion being used as a means of birth control.
I believe that religion as a whole is, indeed, an opium for the masses in which we can dismiss tragedy as "(whichever God one worships") will."
I don't WANT to be married but I support those who wish to express their mutual love in any way they wish be it marriage, long-term relationships or domestic partnership. Nor do I believe that legalizing gay marriage will lead us into people wanting to marry goats, rabbits or field mice.

This whole "Miss California" thing has pissed me off on so many levels, that I LITERALLY drove home the day she was told she could keep her crown so I could curse and bitch and scream as loud as I wanted to.
I cannot comprehend the gaul this woman has to sit on a throne of morality and tell ME what I should be doing... all the while her closet is filled with topless photos that do nothing more than accentuate her ass and tits. I don't believe the wind was blowing so hard that day that her blouse just FLEW open while she was standing around. It's bullshit and we all know this... she posed for those pics.
I think it more than a bit funny that even Donald Trump didn't believe that they were accidents. He didn't call her a liar, but he never said, "those pics were the act of a less than honorable photographer" either.
He said the pics were fine because " she is a model and a pretty one." Leading one to believe that he not only ENJOYED the pics, but also realizes they were not " between frame" pictures.

Carrie Prejean wants us to dismiss the lies... the lies about how many photos were taken... how old she was when said photos were taken... or how her "strong Christian beliefs" allowed her to pose in photos wearing panties that showed off her ass and NO top. But we're supposed to smile and nod when she says that she's a model and wanted to model for Victoria's Secret.
Last I checked, Christians (not ONLY Christians, I feel the need to point out) had coronaries over a Victoria's Secret fashion show that was on television. This is the same group that wanted Janet Jackson tortured in public for ( accidentally or not) exposing her breast during the Super Bowl Family Hour Extravaganza... you know the one that featured ads from Bud Light, GoDaddy and intimated that women are sluts for beer.

So... how many people know a "fundamental christian" church that would allow and encourage an active Victoria's Secret model into their church while she was posing topless and wearing the latest lacey thong in ads?
Yeah... same here.
But Trump's explanation was that "we are in the 21st century and she is pretty" is ridiculous and more than a little insulting.

I don't care about Prejean's views on gay marriage. I think she's wrong, but he opinion of me doesn't mean jack shit... I do care that when exposed in numerous accounts of flat out LYING and committing fraud (she said there were no nude/semi nude photos of her anywhere when she signed up for the pageant) NOTHING was done... in fact she was rewarded and smiled upon.

I can't stand Perez Hilton, either... he's smarmy, rude and totally full of shit and hate. We all know this, too.

I'm also angered that she has linked up with The National Organization of Marriage to spew their hateful bile and use her as a mouth piece.

And, I'm sorry to be one who says this: If she had been OKAY with gay marriage and those same pics had come out Pat Robertson and James Dobson would be in the streets calling for her public decapitation.
Please.... anyone.... tell me I'm wrong.

But since she doesn't approve of gay marriage.... and "Satan tempted" her with the question... she gets a free ride?
Carrie, dear... I don't need your approval. I don't need Robertson or Dobson to approve anything I do, either.

"Approval is neither desired nor required."

Don't tell me how to live and I won't point out to the world how YOU live.

It's raining.... like a LOT of rain.
I don't mind. The thunder woke me up so now I'm sitting at the house, looking Mego Toys of Mighty Isis and the other "Super Gals" collection.

One thought doesnt have a thing to do with the other, but whatever.

God, I love coffee!

I watched the "remake" of My Bloody Valentine. Not too bad... the gore was high.... I guess. Sadly I knew who the killer was pretty much less than 20 minutes into the movie. But... I guess it wasn't a terrible movie.

I also saw the remake of Friday the 13th. Don't bother.... boring.

Side note...

I finally watched "The Trials of Ted Haggard."

I don't know. After watching, I UNDERSTAND him more than I did.... but I still feel zero sympathy for him.
I still find it sickening that his gay sex was more focused on than the fact that he bought and used meth.

He went to "Homo-Rehab" but still made very little in the way of "drug rehab."

That bugs the shit out of me. The greater of 2 evils.... and the worst is the sex he has or does or does not have?

Geeze.

Long time no see.

I'm back to blogging, again. I took a break... mostly due to burn-out. Somewhat due to "other factors." I won't go into it... suffice it to say that it took me some extended time and rest to really WANT to blog again.

I know I have been fairly open on this blog about my life. I blogged about my Parkinson's before I told anyone in my family.

The past couple of months have been filled with... work.... sleep... and some depression and some minor drama.

I promise you guys that I will certainly be blogging regularly again. Starting now.

Won't be everyday, but will be back to "as normal as possible."

Thanks for checking in... thanks for bearing with this cryptic/unusual post. LOL

I'm back, ya'll.

***HUGS***

I promise to get this blog going again very soon. I have been busy with work and junk and stuff, lately.

But this page WILL be updated soon. Promise!

Bear with me, bloglings.

So....

One of the New Kids on the Block may be gay.







Thank God it's the hot one.... Danny being gay would have made me sick.

I'm just saying.....

(or Of Teds, Mikes and Christians...)

Ted Haggard is not gay.

He's "heterosexual with issues."

Those "issues" being he likes the cock, the meth and whatever else.

It's too funny to see him now say the evangelical parade of Holier than Thous should now "reach out" to the LGBT community.

Well, they should NOW. What with him being a tweaking partial 'Mo himself.

Hmmm... too little too late, Ted.

So... in case you missed it:
When Teddy was a closeted cock-sucker with a love of male prostitutes and crystal meth, he wanted to tell everyone about how wrong it was to be closeted cock-suckers with a love of male prostitues and crystal meth.

Then it came out that he was a closeted cock-sucker with a love of male prostitutes and crystal meth... he lost his job, his self-respect, his dignity and his support-base... suddenly we need to realize there are gay people in this world who deserve respect and that ever-present "Christian Love."

Eat shit, Ted... I know you can... I've seen your teeth.... probably very little, besides the shackles of self-hatred, you CAN'Tchew through.

By the by.... have you seen this man??? How much should a whore charge for allowing a dick to pass through THOSE chompers?

Michael Phelps is a bong-smoker.

Meh... I don't care. "Makes me no never-mind," as my gramma says.

But here is my issue... when you go to the Olympics and you win more medals than your neck can comfortably carry at any one time and you have millions of little kids looking up to you and admiring you.... TRY TO AVOID BEING CAGHT ON CAMERA DEEP THROATING A BIG RED BONG!!!!!!!!!! Seriously, dude.

I don't care if you like the weed... but you know who does? YOUR FUCKING SPONSORS.

And don't try to justify it by saying, "I'm young and it's a mistake I'll never make again!"

I've seen the picture.... Mike's a PRO at the bong... this wasn't just a "I'll try it one time... tee-hee," thing.

Moron.

Have you guys heard the audio of Christian Bale on the set of T4???? Holy cow! Dude likes the F-bomb!!!!

While it frightens me... I'm kinda turned on by it, too..... Batman has a dirty mouth. I bet if Bruce were REALLY like that, Dick would have stayed with him for years!

Kinda hot.

AN OPEN LETTER TO GEORGE W. BUSH....

Dear George.


SO LONG, BIYATCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sincerely,
Tony


thank you.

I've been thinking a lot about death, lately. Specifically MY death. *shrug*

I've never really been over-obsessive about the matter. When I was a teen, I used to worry about what would happen if I went to bed and never woke up... but even then, I didnt obsess over it.

Not so much lately... I actually worry about it.

Death scares me. It comes for everyone, but...

I dunno.

Ever since I got diagnosed with the big P, I worry about it more than I probably should. I take my meds, I see my doctor... but so do a LOT of people who die.

What makes me so different?

Nothing.

And don't even get me started on the fear of dying alone... without being in love again.
I'm not activly pursuing love at this point, but the want is there. But you can't find what you're not looking for....

right?

UGH

Stupid depression.

I want a McRib.

'Twas the Day after the day after christmas

And Little Rock.... erm.... MOST of the Arkansas state is preparing for incoming severe weather.

Large hail... damaging winds.... possible tornadoes. Ho Ho Ho.

And Tucson got snow.

WTF????

Merry Christmas to all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love you bunches!

In the Meantime... In Between Time...

I promise to Blog more again, sooner than later.

I'm running on 11hrs of no sleep and still have at least until 8pm tonite until I can.

Christmas party.... I'm making pineapple uspide down cake.

It's in the oven right now.... 20 minutes left..... I may nap when it's done baking.

Love and stuff to all o' you.

More later.

Peace out.

It's a Fact....

Drunk Canadian Air-Force guys.... while cute.... are MESSY! They've been here about 3 hours and I have picked up 11 pizza boxes, 5 beer cans (not empty, but overturned, anyway) and a pair of gloves and a hat.

I told one of them they should feel guilty about Celine Dion, and he said, as have OTHER Canadian Guys I know, that she can go fuck herself and take the whole of Quebec with her.
Then he went on a rant about how much he hates Frenchies and Chinks.

Don't ask me..... he was drunk, so it could have been Finches and Sheiks, I guess.

Damn those little birds.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO ALL!!!!

More blogging to come later. I am in my new place and internet activity is nill, right now, as I can't get a strong signal... but will resume as soon as possible.

Wishing you all much happiness!

Gays are Violent Secular Facists!

You homos and your sinful love of brotherhood and acceptance.... have you no shame?
Newt Gingrich on Bill O'Reilly, last night.

“Look, I think there is a gay and secular fascism in this country that wants to impose its will on the rest of us, is prepared to use violence, to use harassment. I think it is prepared to use the government if it can get control of it. I think that it is a very dangerous threat to anybody who believes in traditional religion. And I think if you believe in historic Christianity, you have to confront the fact. And, frank -- for that matter, if you believe in the historic version of Islam or the historic version of Judaism, you have to confront the reality that these secular extremists are determined to impose on you acceptance of a series of values that are antithetical, they're the opposite, of what you're taught in Sunday school.”

See? Being gay IS antithetical. Newt Gingrich knows ethical issues. When he was having an affair on his second wife, he was all about the ethics.

NOW I bet you're ashamed of your dirty dirty gay sex!

WHO WE ARE.... WHAT WE WANT

You know. It's downright funny to me. Seriously.... you (and by "you" I don't mean everyone) don't want to grant the homosexual community even the basics of rights.

You don't want us marrying.
You don't want us adopting.
You don't want us raising children.

Guess what, America... WE ALREADY ARE.

This isn't 1945, anymore. We aren't hiding... we haven't been in hiding in a LONG time. Sure... some of us are.... but, now more than ever we've stopped it. We're NOT ashamed anymore.

It gets worse, "my friends."

We are your teachers.
Your law enforcement.
Your parents.
Your children.
Your entertainment.
Your preachers.

We don't NEED your approval. God knows we don't WANT it.

We want to be in love.
We want to prove our love to each other.
We want to be there when life begins.
We want to be there when life ends.
We have the ability to change the world... but you won't let us because you are afraid we will change you... or touch your children.

You want the world to believe we are sinners.... plague starters... immoral...

Perhaps.

But think of it.... do you REALLY want us gone? I mean really?

Because we are also your hairdressers, your make-up artists.... we make and design your clothes.
We even make your husbands horny.

So... the choice is yours, World.
We're not asking you to be gay. We're not asking you to learn to take it up the ass.

We ARE asking you to stop the hate. Stop treating us like Second Class Citizens.

Like it or not.... "WE'RE HERE.... and we're NOT going anywhere."

"THAT'S NOT WHAT I MEANT AND MULLET FANTASIA....."

Even almost 30 years ago, they knew Obama was gonna do something great.

Here is a story told by the great Kool and the Gang to illustrate:

PRESIDENT OBAMA, YA'LL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so proud of America... the world, today. I sit here with tears in my eyes. This is stunning and awesome and amazing and a unifying change. I could laugh and cry at the same time out of such happiness.

To you who voted.... no matter who you voted for.... thank you for making your voice heard.

Gays didn't make out so well this election.... but.... a drop in the ocean.

WE DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hug someone, today.

JUST DO IT!!!!

I'm telling you now. If Paris Hilton votes and you do NOT vote.... you suck.

Seriously.

If you CAN vote.... DO it.

No excuses.

IN HONOUR OF HALLOWEEN....

Cut Short Too Soon...

1982-2008

Anne Pressly died today.

Last week she was brutally beat by someone. Click HERE

She put up a courageous fight.

You've no doubt heard of the attack. It was all over the news.

We here in Little Rock are saddened by the loss of this beautiful amazing 26 year old.

Rest in Peace, Anne. You deserve it.

God Laughs...

I tried to avoid it. I wasn't gonna listen to it... I swear.

Somehow I came across it. And I liked it.

God help me... I liked it!!!


Britney's new single, Womanizer, I mean. It's great... it has an addictive beat to it and I like it.

Damn it.

See more Hayden Panettiere videos at Funny or Die

Dear Governor Palin,

Stop. Seriously.

Everytime I see you on television, you are waxing poetic about how you're from Alaska.

Stop acting like Alaska is a world unto it's own. You make yourself sound like an alien visitor from another planet. Alaska is another state, but by no means so detached from the United States that you are walking into a strange new world each time you cross over the border.

You remind me of that old Phil Hartman SNL skit, Unfrozen Caveman Lawyer:
"Ladies and gentlemen of the jury, I'm just a caveman. I fell on some ice and later got thawed out by some of your scientists. Your world frightens and confuses me!Sometimes when I get a message on my fax machine, I wonder: "Did little demons get inside and type it?" I don't know!"

Applied to you, it sounds like this:
"Ladies and gentlemen of the United States, I'm just an Alaskan. I fell on some beauty pageant heels and later got asked to run along with John McCain. Your world frightens and confuses me! Sometimes when I see a homosexual on TV, I wonder: "Did little liberals get inside and change God's word?" I don't know!"

I'm suprised the state of Alaska hasn't, as a whole, smacked you over the head for making them sound like a bunch of inbred hillbillies. They're not.

Contrary to what you may have us believe.

I know it sounds cute to you to say things like, "Golly Gosh gee willikers and you betcha," but everytime I hear you say it, I resist the overwhelming urge to vomit. Not BECAUSE you say it, but because it is ALL you say. It's tired.

And, Governor Palin, I must also admit that when you tell us what a friend to the common man you are, we all pretty much know it's bullshit.

The Common Man isn't just rhetoric.

The common man is real.

The common man works... and he works hard.

The common man works overtime at a thankless job so he's sure his kids have dinner on the table.

The common man's wife doesnt wear designer gowns and diamonds.

The common man doesn't shove the fact that he is a common man in your face with every oppertunity.

So, you can stand behind your podium and giggle and wink and look cute.

You can continue the pretend wide eyed wonderment of the modern world.

But, if you get elected.... and I pray you won't... don't take it to the White House.

We just suffered 8 full years with a moron. We don't need another.

Thank you.

Behold the.... uh.... end of the world?

(or: Tick tick tick BOOM)

You know... something occured to me as I sit here and watch the Debate of Obama vs McCain.

There are still people who insist on referring to Obama as "The AntiChrist."

See... this is what I don't really comprehend:

Just for the sake of argument and to play (pun not intended) Devil's Advocate, let's say that Barack IS the Antichrist.
What I don't get is the Christian reaction to it. Those who follow (or say they do) the Bible, should know that the "good book" says it's gonna happen. It's inevitable, yeah?

Also, the coming of the AntiChrist is the beginning of the ushering in of the Second Coming. Which, unless I am mistaken, is widely considered to be a good thing...

So.... why fight it?

If he IS the Anti-Christ it seems to me that the campaign to NOT get him elected by Rich White Christian Men is basically attempting to change the "Unending Word of the Eternal God."

Thereby, preventing the Second Coming of Christ.

Am I the only one who sees this? I can't be.

I know this sounds odd. It makes more sense in my head than on screen.... sorry about that.

Okay, ya pervie bastards....

It's ON MY WRIST!




First of all... shame on you.

Secondly.... I would never put a tattoo on my winkie. Because.... eww and also.... ouch!

Birthday present...

Eye of Horus/Eye of Ra tattoo.... I loves it.